| I can't help feeling like a fool
Since I lost that place inside
Where my heart knew its way Though beauty is rare enough
Still we trust
Somehow we'll find it there
With no guarantee
It seems to me
At least it should be fair
But if it's only tears and pain
Isn't it still worth the cost
Like some sweet saving grace
Or a river we must cross
If we don't understand
What this life is made of
We learn the truth
When we find that kind of love
Cause when innocence is lost
There is not faith enough
We learn the truth
When we find that kind of love |
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| Si es cuestión de confesar
no sé preparar café
y no entiendo de fútbol
creo que alguna vez fuí infiel
juego mal hasta el parqués
y jamás uso reloj
y para ser más franca nadie
piensa en ti como lo hago yo
aunque te dé lo mismo
si es cuestión de confesar
nunca duermo antes de diez
ni me baño los domingos
la verdad es que también
lloro una vez al mes
sobre todo cuando hay frío
conmigo nada es fácil
ya debes saber
me conoces bien
y sin ti todo es tan aburrido
el cielo está cansado ya de ver
la lluvia caer
y cada día que pasa es uno más
parecido a ayer
no encuentro forma a alguna de
olvidarte porque
seguir amándote es inevitable
siempre supe que es mejor
cuando hay que hablar de dos
empezar por uno mismo
ya sabrás la situación
aquí todo está peor
pero al menos aún respiro
no tienes que decirlo
no vas a volver
te conozco bien
ya buscaré qué hacer conmigo
É você
Só você
Que invadiu o centro do espelho Deita no meu leito e se demora
Na vida só resta seguir i think that's all i need to say. it has always been my way of screaming what i feel.
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| time for thoughtful thoughts. i.....don't know how to sort out my heart.
in fact my computer seems to be working as slowly and defectively as my heart...
soon i will probably make another pilgrimage to the soccer field here at sun moon. it makes me feel at peace.
i see only good things to come from this venture of mine into, once again, new territory. but it is beginning to become clear that although my whole life that is strewn out in front of me, is negotiable, if i don't get some clear beautiful footprints forward, it could jeopardize my ability to stay the course. of course, that's not so much news...
but being here, in its newness has made me feel...... so small, so helpless and inconsequential. and it has made me refocus on my life course because i don't want to be enveloped by anything.
ehhh i hate feeling so small...아버지.
a few days in and i'm using enough korean to see that it's not a completely fruitless endeavor. however i haven't yet calculated the heart stress from not being able to speak Korean as well as I could. that could end up evening out if i don't become a little bit more chill.
but really what are my thoughts? after this intense summer that has instilled in me more confidence to love than I can ever remember having? I just have all this desire to give...
things seem to have lined up more neatly in my memory. i guess for that reason the pain doesn't seem to be as subtle as it sometimes could be. it brings to the forefront of my identity, the questions of why have i been through all that i have, and what will i be able to offer in the future. it's strange in some ways but that is one of my two biggest fears in facing the blessing: will i be able to make my offering, will i be able to help the world in the way that i'm meant to, if I am blessed to someone who is on a track that I was never meant to get on? the other biggest fear is, of course, will i be able to find true happiness?
these kind of questions make the chest tighten and the breath shorten and soon enough you never want to think about it again.
but who are we playing against? is not the entire universe on my side? isn't the idea that if i follow my heart i could never go wrong? it makes me never want to question anything again, because, yes. true love is the answer. if i live my life in that standard, that is all anyone could ask for.
i was talking to someone. i want to be more absolute. maybe i need a brother's viewpoint more than i can understand.
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